First of all Sunday went as planned and I did not pick up any more vodka. I had about 8 oz left and drank it in 4 shots. The shots were about an hour apart and I never felt anything. I think my tolerance is so high at this point, 2 oz of vodka does absolutely nothing for me. I think next time I need to condense the drinking so that I at least get a little buzz out of it.
So, I have been thinking a lot about the upcoming Vegas trip and the more I think about it, the more worried I get. One of the things I learned in AA is to think the drink through. Meaning, to visualize what will happen after the first drink. The main goal is to keep one from having the first drink. That is not going to happen with me, but the idea is still very helpful.
This is how my first day in Vegas would have gone. The idea was to pick up some vodka today. Let’s say I pick up a pint, what we call a pint in the US is actually 12.7 oz. I would have drank a 2.7 oz shot before going through security at the airport. I would have brought another 2 oz shot through (in a shampoo bottle or something, easy to do). I would have drank that before boarding or once on board. I would have packed the remaining 8 oz into my check in bag. The first leg of the flight is a small puddle jumper and my guess is that they will not have any alcohol on board since the flight leaves at 10am.
I have a one hour layover in Chicago. I probably would have had a 24 oz draft beer at the bar. If they offered to let me add a shot for $2 as some airport bars do, I would have done that as well. I would have had another beer, maybe 2 on the plane from Chicago to Vegas. As soon as the captain announced we were descending, my cravings would go into high gear thinking about the 8 oz of vodka in my bag. It is tough to explain this feeling to a non-alcoholic, but it is very strong. My blood pressure goes up, I get very fidgety and I start counting down the minutes until I can get to my bag. When I get into a state like that, a 2 oz shot will do nothing. Once I had my bag, I would have drank half the bottle to relax myself. Sometimes I wonder if a placebo would have a similar effect. The other 4 oz would be gone on the shuttle to the hotel or as soon as I got into my hotel room.
OK, let me add this up. That means at about 3:00pm in Vegas, I would have already had 3 or 4 beers and 12.7 oz of vodka. Depending on what one considers a drink, that comes out to about 11 or 12 drinks. Now, I really don’t feel all that buzzed at this point, but I have 6 more hours of drinking to go. I stop thinking the drink through at that point because I know the day is not going well and won’t end well.
Even going through that in my mind, I still had a battle with myself this morning about picking up. And, I was not thinking about a pint, I was VERY close to picking up a liter. My thought process was that it would be good to have some vodka waiting for me when I get home. I have a redeye back from Vegas Friday night. I can’t sleep on planes so I will be up all night. I will be a little tired and edgy when I get home and it would be nice to have a drink on hand. But, then I started thinking that through. I would have had my first drink at 6:30am and that would be another bad day. Picking up a liter today would not have been a good idea.
Anyway, I have not picked up today and I don’t think I will. I will go to the airport with one sober day under my belt, it is a small airport and a small plane, so I will have no access to alcohol until I get to Chicago around noon. I will have a drink then and another on the plane to Vegas but WON’T have any vodka waiting for me in my bag when I get off. By the time I get to my hotel room, I will have had a few drinks, but nothing close to the 11 or 12 that I was leading towards if I picked up today.
The rest of the Vegas trip will be a little easier. Breakfast starts at 7am every day, then there is training until 6pm, then networking and dinner. I can’t say I won’t get buzzed or even a little drunk, but it is a much safer environment when I am mingling with 300 other business professionals. Wish me luck !!!!