Last week didn’t go quite as well as I hoped. I knew I was going over my limit for the golf tournament, but I had planned to still average 15 drinks a week for the week before and the week of the golf day. The week before, I had a decent start with 12 drinks, 3 short (I know in my last post I said it was 13, but I recounted and it was 12). So, that means I could have 18 for the golf week. I had nine on the golf day leaving me with 9 for the rest of the week.
I felt pretty good about it and started by going dry Tues, Wed, Thurs and having 2 on Friday. I had planned to have 5 on Saturday and 2 on Sunday. I failed. My wife and I dropped off our daughter at a friend’s house on Saturday eve and went out to dinner to celebrate her 50th birthday. I ended up having 4 drinks secretly and split a bottle of wine with my wife over dinner. Since there is about 5 drinks in a bottle of wine, that means I had 6.5 for the night. I did not drive.
At this point, I still didn’t feel too bad, but for whatever strange reason, I had 6 more on Sunday. In the end, what I effectively did was to treat the golf day as an extra day and had almost 15 (my limit) during the rest of the week. I tried to look back and think about what went wrong on Sunday and what the triggers might have been, but there really was no reason, I just did it.
Even more alarming was that I had my first drink on Sunday around noon. So, I never got drunk. I think I had about one drink an hour for 6 hours, but still not a good thing. OK, so I move on.
This week I had planned to go sober Mon – Thurs. But I went to a Toastmasters meeting Monday night and found out there was a small party afterwards with wine and appetizers. I really didn’t want to stay as it was 9pm before the party started and had hoped to say good night to my daughter before she fell asleep, but I was visiting another club and really did want to stay and network.
The good news is that someone offered to pour me a glass of wine and I agreed. But, the first pour was only about 2 oz. In the past when I was boozing more and would have been looking for a buzz I would have been mortified, 2 oz’s: are you kidding me !!! However, on this night I was glad. I chatted for a while, poured myself about 2 more oz’s, sipped and enjoyed. Amazing, I had about 4 oz of wine over a half hour period. It felt normal and I enjoyed it.
Sober last night, sober tonight, sober Thursday will complete my 3 days dry minimum for the week. Then, I have to prepare myself to stay under control for my wife’s birthday party this Saturday. We are having about 42 family and friends at our house and I am doing all of the cooking. My first goal will be to delay my first drink until around 5pm. The party starts at 3pm.