I have not been good the last couple of weeks in updating my status. It has been pretty much the same since my last post. The last 2 weeks I picked up a 1.75 liter bottle of vodka on Thursday or Friday and drank a good bit of it on the weekend. This past weekend, I worked a half day on Friday for the 4th holiday and started a little earlier than normal for a weekend. By the time Saturday night was gone, I had about 10 oz left from the big bottle. That makes for some pretty heavy drinking on Friday and Saturday.
I was able to hide it very well. As usual, I started early and paced myself. Making it easier is that I went to the local city pool both days and spend most of the time in the water which kind of helps to keep one seemingly sober. I have to say that I actually did enjoy the buzz along with the sun and the pool. On Saturday we spent 6 hours there. I got about an hour to myself while my wife watched my daughter. That means an hour laying on a lounge chair with my ipod relaxing listening to music. I DO really enjoy that. I could easily spend 8 hours on a beach by myself with a half bottle of vodka and a couple of cold beers and have a nice relaxing time. That comes out to only one good 2 oz shot per hour with a beer here and there. That is not enough to get drunk, only a slight relaxing buzz. However, I don’t expect to get that opportunity any time soon.
I had only about 6 oz on Sunday, all in an hours time while watching the Wimbledon final a little before noon. 6 oz in an hour does give me a good buzz, but then I stopped for the day. I know, however, that I would not have stopped if not for knowing that my wife would return soon from grocery shopping. I have about 3 to 4 oz left and I will drink that tonight after work. Then, I am out again.
My goal is to go at least the rest of the week. If possible, I will go the weekend without picking up. I need to be extra careful this weekend as my sister is coming into town from Florida. She can read me like a book and I don’t want to chance getting caught by her. She will be here until 7/20. That is 2 weeks from today. Can I/will I go that long without it? I am not sure. I can’t think that far ahead and stress over it.