Well, almost half way to my 30 days of abstaining, it will be 15 days at 6:00pm tonight. Last night was interesting. I said in my last post that the only reason I could think of for not doing a 30 was that I wanted to drink last night which was the end of my original 2 weeks. The other part of that was that I had plans to go out with a couple of high school buddies for drinks last night. I thought in advance that it would have been nice to have a couple of drinks with them. However, after some more thinking about it, I realized that there will be no time in the next 12 months where there will be a 30 day period where I will not find a reason to drink. There will always be something.
Last night I got to the restaurant a little after my friends who had already ordered drinks. I tried to discretely order a NA beer from the server. I turned away from the group and told her to bring me a NA beer in a glass thinking she would understand. She didn’t’. She brought the bottle back to the table and poured it into a glass in front of the table. Luckily, the others were engaged in chatting and I don’t think anyone noticed. Later she came back to see who wanted another drink and asked me in front of everyone if I wanted another beer. She said the name, but I don’t remember it, it was some type of NA import. Again, I don’t think anyone noticed. However, I thought to myself that these servers ought to be trained that some people that drink NA beer would like to be discreet.
Anyway, the night was easy and I was glad I didn’t drink. Surprisingly, I had no cravings and did not miss it at all. I think it was because I have already prepared myself for the mindset of a 30. When I got home at 10:15, my wife and daughter were still awake reading a book. I hopped in bed with them to say prayers. It sure was a relief and less stressful to not have to hide the alcohol on my breath. I sensed that my wife was checking me out anyway. My eyes were a little red from walking home in the cold and that is the one way my wife would be able to tell I was drinking. I don’t know what she thought and really don’t care as I was sober. That NA beer I had was really good by the way. It tasted as good as a regular beer. I need to stop back by that restaurant to get the name.
3 weekends sober, wow !!!