I consider last week another successful week with 15 drinks.
What was interesting was that on Friday night, I had only 2 glasses of wine and was completely content. That might not sound like a big deal to many people, but my wife and daughter were out for the evening, I had plenty of vodka, wine and beer in the house, but found myself completely satisfied with the 2 glasses of wine. And, I did not set out to limit myself to only 2. I figured I would have about 4 drinks.
I have mentioned this before, but there is a big difference between drinking wine or beer and drinking shots of vodka, at least for me. I am sure I would have also been satisfied with 2 beers. Would it have been the same with 2 vodka mixed drinks? I am not sure.
On the other hand, I know that if I started with the vodka, 2 shots would not have been enough. Is it because I had a drink with me for 2 hours (the amount it took to drink the wine) and always had a sip at arms length? Is it the action of simply drinking or that a little alcohol was consumed at a steady pace? Could I possibly be morphing into a normal drinker?
Furthermore, I had a little bit of a buzz. I drank the first glass (and they were 2 measured 5 oz glasses) in about a half hour, then nursed the other over almost an hour and a half. I am sure I would not have had the same buzz with 2 shots of vodka. I guess my BAC would have been the same, but the effect was different.
Sunday night was a similar situation. I had 2 glasses of wine at a party and was completely content. I will admit, my wife was with me and that influenced my drinking, but I was OK with it. But, then like most weeks, I had a shot of vodka when I got home after the party. Why, because I was only at 14 drinks for the week and I could.
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